I'm out of breath! Not from running, nah, I don't really do that. Not from doing exercise either... nope. I'm put of breath because I let other people's lack of planning or organisation constitute an emergency on my part. It's my problem, I know. I'm fully aware of this, and yet, despite some efforts I can't seem to completely "let it slide" or do like Hubby says so well "F*ck it all!"
Maybe I'll ask my GP on Saturday for a prescription for those little suckers... Maybe they would do the trick!
In the mean time, I have to vent a little, yet again. April was a "windy" (vent) month for me, wasn't it? Oh well. Earlier today I received an email from the Canadian Cancer Society. As you may remember, I'm doing this Relay for Life thing in a month or so, and our team (VIGILANT) is doing great. We are 5th among the top ten for our district (Montreal-Centre). I'm happy about that.
When I decided to put together a team it was because one: I wanted to do it (again) because who among us hasn't been touched by cancer in some ways, and two: because I wanted to contribute to cancer research. It might be utopian of me to think that the money given actually goes to research, but hey... I did put a team together and we're 12. I'm trying to keep the focus on the fact that first and foremost this is a fund raising activity, not only a "fun night" walking. The Society "expect" each participant to raise a minimum of $100 (in addition to the $10 fee to sign up, which entitles you to a T-Shirt, breakfast, soup, etc.) That's cool, it's a fundraiser, remember. Today when I got that email stating that each participant is “also encourage" to sell/buy at least 5 luminaries (at the cost of $5/ea.) it rubbed me wrong. What's next? Already a member of the team wants to quit because she doesn't feel worthy because she's not bringing in that much money and can't really afford to buy luminaries... This is not sitting well with me. I will let them know, on Tuesday night during the Captains' meeting that I don’t agree with their way of doing this, and that most likely next year I won’t be raising money for them.
Yes it is a fundraiser, but it shouldn't be about pressing people to sell. Not many of us are really comfy asking others for donations and to add the luminaries... I don’t want this experience to be all about money. There’s more to it than that. Granted without luminaries the path would look completely different and it wouldn’t be as touching. That was one of my favourite moments last year. To think that each of those little candles is burning in honour or in memory of a person touched by cancer is moving to say the least…
I think I'm done for now... Time for bed & to catch my breath a little.