My body is talking to me, and yes I know that more exercise in my routine would be beneficial, I know all that, and I also know that I'm the one in pain here! I hurt from the moment I get up to the moment I get into bed and even while I sleep pain wakes me when I turn in bed, so, please… I know you’re well intentioned and only want me healthy, but there are some things going on with me that nobody knows about, not even the f*cking doctors! Can you believe that I went for my spinal tap on January 24th, and to THIS day I haven’t heard f*ck all from the neurologist! I don’t remember how many friggin’ messages I’ve left. At first his secretary would say “it takes a while for results to come in”, then the results were in, but she couldn’t tell me what they were. Last week they were off on vacation, and today they are closed. It’s completely ridiculous and yes I should change doctor, but I’m not willing to go through other tests like I’ve been through so far. There’s enough pain coming my way. A friend of mine, who’s about to retire as a nurse, suggested to get a lawyer involved. I might have to think about this.
I’m not looking for sympathy here, I’m just venting. I’m frustrated and in pain. The constant headache and neck pains are really getting to my moral. I try to keep up the brave happy front, and not show that I’m constantly in pain, the only one who really knows how much I hurt is Hubby, and it’s taking its toll even on him. I’m tired, physically & mentally. I don’t remember what I did or who I was in a previous life, but this life’s karma was all about pain, that much I know. I had to learn about suffering, and I think that by the time I’ll die I will have learn lots about it, that’s for damn certain.
Anyway, I received this video from a friend, and despite being long (18 min.) I think it is worth watching. Enjoy!